I’m so tired and just want to sleep forever. Unfortunately the crying has started. I had to say so many goodbyes in the last 2 days and I am never going to forgive him for making me leave before my time. However, I can’t wait to be an ocean away from him.
FORTUNATELY though, today was really productive. I packed! I have all of my stuff stuffed into 2 suitcases, got all of my last minute stuff done on base, and said goodbye to a few of the greatest friends a girl could ever ask for.
Now I am laying in bed wishing that it was possible to move minds as well. I just want to toss all the trash in the last year and a half and pack a suitcase full of the great memories and wonderful people and unpack it in a new brain where I won’t constantly have to find distractions to keep the tears from flowing.
It’s midnight 30 here in Germany..which means it’s officially my very last full day here. I am overcome with emotion and honestly most of it is not what anyone wants to hear me whine about any longer.
Instead I would love to share a couple of lists I have been working on for the past couple of weeks. Every time I am in a situation and have a chance to, I jot down the things I will miss and NOT miss about Germany. Here’s how it goes….
-trees (don’t have many of these in Lubbock)
-fests (I plan on finding more of these locally)
-wanderlust (it’s going to be harder to find places I don’t know about or haven’t been before closer to home)
-bakeries (I live for chocolate croissants and cherry pastries)
-autobaun (this girl likes to drive fast. seriously fast.)
-beer (it’s just a way of life here!!)
– soccer (and you think TTU gets rowdy)
-men in uniform (it’s weird that I am going to go from being on an air force base to never seeing any ABUs!)
-windows (the way they open, shade, and hinge is genius and America needs to step it up.)
-roundabouts (I love that I don’t have to stop..just rollllllll through. It’s more my speed.)
-weather (pretty much the best year and a half of my life. three words I could go forever without hearing: west texas wind.)
-family (I realize this sounds weird to most, but my friends here have been everything to me in the last 6 months. I don’t know how I would have survived this without them. Each and every one of them has listened to my pain at one point or another..and still loves me. I can’t imagine what a mess I would be without them. Thank you. You know who you are.)
Now there are things that I am not going to miss as well:
-water (I really hate having to specify that I don’t want carbonated water…and heaven forbid it be free.)
-internet (I am spoiled! I miss having fast internet and free wifi everywhere…or outlets for that matter. I am addicted to my devices and I need juice!)
-lost in translation (I don’t like getting nervous when I am leaving a store because there’s a part of me that’s not sure if I’m going out the right door and that I might set an alarm off. I can’t talk to strangers. I can’t call bill companies to complain. I struggle with ordering a meal. It’s just getting old, and my German’s not getting any better.)
-recycling (anyone who know’s me knows I am BAD at this. Too many bags, too many colors, too much trash…I am too lazy for it. Sadly, I’ve just recently gotten used to it.)
-mayonnaise on fries (nope. this is not okay in my book.)
-telephone numbers (wait your number is 12481297481273189232? oh yeah, I’ll remember that.)
-currency (I hate carrying two types all the time! It always seems that I happen to have the opposite of the one I need that day! and what’s with the different size euro bills always. You can keep them true to the German technicolor theme….just make them all the same size pleasssssse.
-gema laws (nothing ticks me off more than when I get excited about a song or a video and I can’t watch it!!)
Thank goodness I am going home! After that rant, I’m sure the German’s are ready to get rid of me! Back to Texas I go…where I have a handful of favorites that I’m excited about as well!
-friends and family who support me
-fountain dr. pepper….with ice!!
-pay at the pump gas
-mail at my front door
There’s so much more to add to all of these lists…but I’m curious to see how they change as I settle back into life in the states. I think this post has served it’s purpose though. Most of the sad stuff has left my thoughts and I am feeling my eye lids get heavier. Goodnight!
*huge sigh of sadness from THIS "family member"* But reading your lists of things not to miss about Germany and things to look forward to about Texas makes me smile. I'm so glad you have good things ahead :o) Love you friend. So blessed to have been in your life for this past year and a half.
I was SO looking forward to seeing these lists! They are awesome. and completely true. except for your mayo with fries comment. lol Please drink some fountain DP for me and swing by Sugar Browns for a latte and some fab music. I wish you could have put me in your pocket and taken me with you! Although, I'd have to be REEEEEAAAAAALLLYYY tiny because you're already pocket-size. love you, jw.